Flower fight


Sometimes, really, I don't want to talk about flowers here. Flowers all the time, a nice problem but a problem, too. There was a night this week that I couldn't fall asleep, wracked with anxiety over the color of wimpy imported clematis. Too blue of a purple! It just won't work with that blushing magnolia! I fretted for just long enough to feel like the biggest spoiled baby in the history of the first world. I ended up counting backwards from 100 to fall asleep, my favorite yoga meditation trick. You inhale on the number and exhale in between. (I just turned into my mom while writing that.) Flower coping mechanisms, they are real.

When I get busy, I swill Rescue Remedy. Technically some mumbojumbo homeopathic stress reliever, it's made up from 5 flower essences. This irony didn't dawn on me for several months- a vaguely cannibalistic, hair of the dog situation for florists. You must consume that which you fight. It's a nice fight though, and one I will always surrender to.


26 comments:

  1. It's funny how in the middle of the night problems seem a whole lot bigger. Thanks for the yogo meditation tip!

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  2. Ha ha! Keep your friends close and your enemies closer, or something?!

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  3. I use that trick all the time to fall asleep! I used to use it much more when I worked in a costume shop and would lie awake worrying about how to fix the fit on someone's bodice, or wondering if we had enough buttons for a jacket.

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  4. I've never found that Rescue Remedy worked for me! Why do the flowers gotta let me down? I love them so much. Maybe it's because I have to look up what a clematis is.

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    1. I'm not sure it actually does anything more than the usual placebo effect. Whatever it is, I'll take it!

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  5. I work in the beauty industry and when I experience stress, I can totally relate to what you're feeling! I feel so silly, but it's good to acknowledge it and do your best to let it go. I always joke that my blood-rescue remedy-content is over the legal limit.

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  6. I used Rescue Remedy when I was working at a particularly stressful job. Flowers or not, your posts never fail to take me to a better place. Thanks!

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  7. Seems like whatever we're doing in life, the work can still stress us out, no matter how beautiful it might seem to others! Sharon

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  8. Aaah...the small nuances and subtle shadings of flowers can TOTALLY stress one out, especially when a client is involved. But so true, to have that the problem of the day seems small in the grand scope of things. I really enjoy your writing style and content, especially as a fellow floral designer. Thanks.

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  9. Funny re Rescue Remedy - definitely homeopathic - some of the same!

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  10. I hear you! I often find myself waking up in the night worry about design issues. Thanks for the meditation tip.

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  11. I originally heard of Rescue Remedy from my vet when my cat started overgrooming herself (purportedly from stress). My vet said to put it in the water bowl. No kidding. I think I like it better than kitty does. ;)

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  12. I love the irony of your post ! Some people stay awake because they wonder how to pay their rent or they are worrying about the results of biopsies. With humour you describe your anguished concern about the shade of a clematis ! Hermès has very nice bouquets of roses and clematis rue du Fbg St Honoré and I wonder were they come from in the middle of the winter.
    It's freezing in Paris (never was so cold before !) and my helleborus died on my balcony but I sleep at night because unfortunately I don't have to worry about purplish blue clematis.
    PS : I love the pictures of the Florida's wedding. BRAVO ! You should come to the Italian riviera one day, Ravello, you'll love it !

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  13. I love this post and completely relate, though I don't myself fight with flowers.

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  14. Even your worries are beautiful and sweet smelling- in my books that's good going- not spoiled- good for you- when I can't sleep at night I visualise I am in the most luxurious hotel ever, possibly in Paris, but that varies, with exotic tulips all over the room...sweet dreams!

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  15. I just had to write and let you know, that breathing exercise and counting backwards, amazing! I am so happy to know this trick now!

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  16. My trick: naming all the horses in the corral at the Elkhorn Ranch, c. 1999. I start with the mule train:

    Ernest
    Ephraim
    Eddie
    Edith
    Vernon
    Barney
    Hollywood

    (and rescue remedy is AMAZING STUFF. love to you, my periwinklette)

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  17. I once had a dream that I was drowning in flowers. I guess I was "fighting" them as I tried to make my way to the surface! I woke up and thought "Wow, I have got to calm down"! Much as I LOVE flowers and the floral design business, I need to learn to handle the stress of the perishable and unpredictable, and not let my favorite things suffocate me. I think I'm getting better at it... and I'll be trying your Rescue Remedy!

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  18. The reason Rescue Remedy calms you down is because it is just brandy.

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    1. Re-occurring flower nightmare: it's 3:00 on a Saturday, I suddenly remember that I have a wedding that day in two hours and I don't have a single stem, a container, anything. The nightmare continues as I drive to various grocery stores in a feverish blur, buying crap, throwing it together in terrible designs, etc. etc. I wake up sweaty with heart palpitations. No, really. I think they shave an hour off my lifespan every time I have one.

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  19. I am vowing no lost sleep this year because of flower work....I just can't take it anymore. We'll see....it hasn't kicked in yet. see you 'round the way

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  20. Holy Cow! You can fret over the exact color of Clematis all you want!! I just found your blog and checked out your portfolio on your website. You are an artist!! Your work is stunningly beautiful! Fretting over adding beauty to people's lives, and consequently the world, is a noble thing. I also thank you for the yoga tip. I will try that the next time I can't get my brain to turn off at night.

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  21. So funny about the flower remedy but it's clear you put a ton of thought into making beautiful arrangements so it's certainly understandable. We're hosting foreign students and I couldnt sleep the other night just stressing about what I was going to make everyone for dinner the next night and if it'd be enough so thank you for this relaxing tip!
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