Happy New Year


I'm in awe that new years keep on happening and with greater frequency than ever before. Meaningless perhaps, only a date on a calendar, but I put a lot of stock in new beginnings so January first will always mean something here. 2011 was full and beautiful and also so altering that I'm struggling to make sense of it. Bite-sized chunks will have to do.

I worshiped Elmwood. I woke up to see the sunrise and fell asleep swatting mosquitoes. I lay in bed and wished I never had to go home. I cursed New York a few times.
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I fell in love with my camera. I pretty much figured out how to use it. I still have a long way to go.
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I moved things around. I moved them back again. I grew stagnant. I took huge leaps. I was so nervous I almost threw up. Only once I actually did.
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I launched my website. I was terrified. I lost perspective. I found it. Sometimes I screamed and cried and made a huge scene. I live alone so nobody saw it.

I dreamt some big dreams. I told people a few and a few I kept for myself.

I felt at ease. I felt at home. I felt understood and appreciated. I felt alone sometimes, but didn't mind.

I walked up to a boy and asked him to get a drink. For the first time in my life. Apparently it's not a big deal.

I made messes. I ran out of storage. I prayed for a huge, prewar industrial loft to work in. I didn't get it.
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I foraged. Like crazy. I learned tree names and clipped more than I needed. I made friends with an old Italian gardener in my neighborhood. I grew flowers on my fire escape.
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I traveled. Close to home and a little further away. I had 143lbs of flowers overnight fedexed to the beach. I really loved teaching classes. Oregon stole my heart.
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I was grateful and humbled. I asked for help and tried to give it, too. You were really there for me and I appreciated it.

2012 is somewhat of a mystery, but I love a good mystery anyways. Resolutions seem like an afterthought for me this year, let's just instead search out a few moments of ridiculous happiness and not think too hard on where we'll find them. Here's to another one with you.

62 comments:

  1. I love this post! 2011 was such a mixed bag for me and I love that fresh start of a new year. I hope it's a wonderful one for you!

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  2. that was such a beautiful post, amy :)

    grace

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  3. Love this post--I'm so into the New Year's thing this year.

    Love it

    @graylinsample
    www.yepindeed.com

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  4. Gorgeous post. 2011 sounds like it was wonderful and I can so relate to leaving the city and never wanting to go back and foraging and being scared to ask a boy for a drink!!! Love it all! Happy New Year!

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  5. I am in love with you & your blog.

    Best wishes for the New Year!

    Satin&Souffles xx

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  6. What a beautiful post! Love your photos and Elmwood...if the paddling photo and the house photo is from Elmwood I totally understand...

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  7. I wish you a fantastic 2012 and thank you for this beautiful beautiful post!

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  8. I have loved watching you, dare I say, "blossom" over the last year :) Cheers to you and yours and I'm sure this new year will be filled with joy and new lessons. Take good care Amy!

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  9. Really honest and lovely post! Your blog is a huge inspiration and I'm really grateful to have found it. Keep doing what you're doing lady, because it's damn good.

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  10. Thanks for such a sweet post. I think your blog is my absolute favorite and one of the most inspirational ever-ever. One day, I sat at home and drank tea and read the whole thing and I was so happy and felt like I made a friend.

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  11. You definitely mastered your camera. Loved the post!

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  12. Such a heartfelt post, you are a remarkable person and artist and I have truly enjoyed reading your blog this past year. May this year bring even more!

    P.S. I also fell in love with Oregon this year, second only to my New England home!

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  13. I really like this post, thank you for being so open with those who read your blog!

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  14. Beautiful post. Like the post above me - you definitely mastered your camera. Happy New Year!

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  15. beautiful post!! i'm in love with your shelf with books and plants, my room is OVERFLOWING with books and i don't know how to store them, that image is really inspiring for me xx

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  16. Love peeking in on your artful life!

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  17. happy new year! 2011 sucked for me, so i'm glad yours was transformative. i think big things are in store for 2012...! :)

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  18. Lovely post, thank you for sharing your beautiful photos. And once you ask a boy out for a drink for the first time it becomes a lot easier afterwards!

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  19. Thank you for this! One other thing you did in 2011, unwittingly, was inspire a stranger (me) with your beautiful blog! Keep 'em coming!

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  20. You're a 'new friend' for me in this lovely internet community I have just started enjoying. Thank you for the fabulous pictures, words and inspiration. Happy 2012! It will be marvellous and you are marvellous! :)

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  21. What a beautiful posting and what an amazing talent you are! I enjoy reading your posts and love your website.
    Happy 2012!!!

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  22. I love the idea of moments of "ridiculous happiness"- I hope that we all have many of those in 2012!

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  23. I am sure this year will be a huge success, the world is better with such a talent in it!

    xx,

    Miss B.

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  24. Such a beautiful post!!
    Happy New Year, Amy.
    Looking forward to more of you
    x
    x

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  25. Your pictures and words really make my heart skip a beat, so beautiful. Heartfelt really is the word! You are such an inspiring person and your blog has obviously touched so many people I hope that fills you confidence, I for one can not wait to see how your 2012 pans out.
    A very Happy New Year to you.
    Kelly-Marie x

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  26. This is hands down my absolute favourite New Year/ last year post so far! I love how honest you are about your achievements (and I guess in some cases non achievements... bummer about the loft apartment!). I am most definitely going to start following your blog to see what you get up to in the coming year. x

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  27. What a beautiful post as well as an inspirational blog. Next time you are in Oregon, visit Ashland and take a walk in Lithia Park behind the Shakespeare theater. You will definitely love Oregon even more!

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  28. I always enjoy your year-end reflection posts. Your photos are dreamy and I love reading your blog. Can't wait to see more in 2012!

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  29. If someone were to ask me my favorite photo *ever* (try not to be too creeped out) it would be your self portrait sitting by your bed with your plants all around you. It's perfect, and I'm constantly trying to capture just a piece of it when I use my camera. If it were remotely acceptable, I'd pin it to my pinterest once a day. Ha!

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  30. Beautiful post!
    Your pictures are stunning :)

    Happy New Year!

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  31. You're doing some amazing work. Your way with plants and flowers (and your photographs) feels like Old Masters come to life. Or reinterpretations of a world marked by abundance and beauty. I don't look at objects and nature in quite the same way since finding your blogs. Thank you for sharing your uncertainties and some of the difficult moments. They seem worth the risk.

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  32. Happy New Year Amy. Have a(nother) great one.

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  33. The farmhouse image is absolutely stunning! I always love visiting your blog for color inspiration.
    Best,
    Amy Meier

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  34. i love you.
    you totally freaking rock!

    thanks for inspiring the hell out of me, always.

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  35. Sounds like 2011 was fantastic for you. Love seeing the photos!

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  36. Your pics are beyond gorgeous!

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  37. I read a lot of blogs, but this New Year's post is the best one of all. Thank you.

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  38. So grateful to have discovered the beauty you share, Amy. All of it. Thank you. xo

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  39. a beautiful post as always! i definitely think you've mastered your camera and your flower arrangements always astound me! you are such a talent and your work has influenced some flowers on my table. happy new year!

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  40. i have been loving your work and your spirit...
    wishing all things good and lovely for you in 2012.
    sarah

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  41. I love visiting your blog, alway such beautiful words and images. Happy new year!

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  42. You're so cool, Amy. Thanks for that. Big hug, and cheers to 2012. Happy New Year.

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  43. Your posts are always beautiful.

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  44. In pictures and words, you can move to tears. But then there are those small, ridiculously happy moments...

    Thank you for every word and image, Amy. Happy New Year.

    judith b.

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  45. May you have a better year filled with blessings. :)

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  46. I've been a quiet reader of your blog this year and love it. I sort of want a book of just Elmwood pictures on my coffee table. It reminds me of my grandma's house on the river in Delaware. She used to live in a little a-frame and life was quaint and relaxed there.

    Congratulations on the goodness that 2011 started for you. Your ability to make nature's bounty so romantic is inspiring. I can't wait for spring to come so I can get planting. Cheers to 2012!

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  47. You are a beautiful writer, and your description of your 2011, reminded me of the wonderful, bad and crazy in mine, and how important it is to simply appreciate the experiences had.
    A quote your post reminded me of:
    "There are flowers everywhere, for those who care to look." -Henri Matisse
    best wishes!

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  48. beautifully stated amy and i'm happy I was around to witness some of the ups, downs and transformative moments. you handled all with tremendous grace. such an inspiring gal ! here's to you and another bountiful year my friend. ~xx

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  49. You make us ridiculously happy cuz you are ridiculously real. The way you write gives us hope that we can be ourselves and shout out our ooops and ahhh's into the world and STILL be respected for who we are.

    You could be wowing us with your travels but instead you invite us on your/our journey of being human.
    You could be bragging about who published what of yours, but instead you make us think we can write our story in it's precarious balance.

    We can think... our ridulously happy moments can be found everywhere. Life is worth living!

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  50. I'm sending you a big kiss right now. So great

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  51. I don't no how to say that .Yourpictures are gorgeous and you flowers just woua ! so beautiful .I want to live into .

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  52. Beautiful photos and flowers! Wishing you a very happy 2012!

    ♥ Maria-Thérèse blog.afiori.com

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  53. completely belated because i'm only managing to catch up on my reader now post-holiday, but i loved this post.

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  54. Life seems more tolerable after reading a blog post like this. Thank you.

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  55. I've been a silent follower of your blog for 3 yrs... it's been a difficult 3 yrs for me, and you have kept me inspired through it all.

    Thank you for being so real. Your blog helps me stay grounded, and yet the creativity and beauty of it allow for my dreams to flourish.

    I feel this year will be full of many memorable and many blessed moments. I wish I could do more for you, because you've done so much for me, just by sharing and being you. Thank you.

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  56. Yes...moments of ridiculous happiness.......I'm all for it. Beautiful post.

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  57. I love the photo in the field of yellow.

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  58. What lovely sentiments...
    thank you for the lovely inspiration.

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  59. Wow you have good sense of photography. I like your all photo. Its wonderful and beautiful. Also I like photography so its useful to me for get idea.

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  60. I really like your blog and it looks very nice. I wish you a fantastic 2012. I will visit again and thanks for sharing your blog with all of us.

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  61. 2012 is still a mystery to me & it's April now ... I think it'll be solved sometime in December. ;)
    Love these photos - they're tinged with magic!

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